The Climb

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  Dear family and friends

  
  

  Unfortunately I have some cancer news to share with you. First off this is messing up with my speech so I am having troubles coming up with words and vocabulary that I normally have so I am apologizing in advance. Last Wednesday I need to start with a different story to bring you to what has happened. At 4:30 AM last Wednesday morning, my cat attacked my face. He pushed his fang into my face which went into my eye and his other fang went very tiny into my cheek. It was bleeding very badly, ended up at the ER. To make a long story short, I had to have it frozen, opened, cleaned, eye drops and amoxicylin. I don't know why my cat did that. He is my baby and I love him so much. I know no longer sleep with him at night and sleep with my bedroom door closed. Please do not judge my cat, he is my baby.

  
  

  I lead with that story for a reason. My short story in ER ended up being 14 hours and so much more. For some reason the nurse/doctor decided that my speech seemed funny at the ER that morning. I didn't notice. The visit led to blood work, a CT scan of my brain. It turns out I have a 3cm turmor in my brain that is sitting on the left side of my speech. I have not had chemo therapy for awhile as I have been working on blood thinners. Because of this, there is a chance that one of these blood clots has also gone to my brain. Sadly nothing can be done in Kingston. Last Wednesday was my first trip to Ottawa General Hospital Cancer Clinic. What a beautiful state of the art hospital WOW!!! They were VERY good to me and Peter. I was explained every thing. I ended up immediately with blood work, a CT scan and I was masked with the personalized head mask I will need for my MRI. I am claustrophobic so this part is really scaring me. It was this heated fabric thin mesh that was really warm and it was put around my face, locked onto my head and I had to lay there for 5 minutes for it to harden to my exact shape. Then we came home. This coming week we have to go back again. Probably Wednesday again. 2.5 hrs there, an hour or 2 at the procedure and 2.5 hrs back again. It's exhausting. This week they will be masking the tumor in my brain to have it ready for the major procedure. I am not looking forward laying there completely still for that long but I know it's necessary.

  Then comes the big procedure. We will be going to Ottawa again for 3 days IF everything goes okay. The bleeding is the worry says doc. They are performing a Gamma Knife Stereotactic procedure, altho it has nothing to do with a knife. It is VERY precise. The doc has to do it for a period of time for 3 days in a row and then hopefully over several months the tumor will shrink. I just hope that my speech doesn't totally collapse. I have already been missing and forgetting my vocabulary and it's way to frustrating for me who never shuts up lol. If you continue to read my blog, this is where my updates will be since this is private.

  Thank you always for all your love and support.