Terrified

This morning when I got up, I felt completely normal. I went to the bathroom, washed my hands and then went to get Zac up for school. I started talking to him and nothing came out right. I was terrified. I didn't mumble I just said random words after words after words. They didn't make any sense, I just woke random words. Then I started crying I was so scared, didn't know what was going on. Zac took me in his arms and tried to get me to stop crying. I finally settled down but words didn't make any sense. He woke Zoe up as my words were still all mixed up, She was way too tired and I let her go back to sleep. When she woke up she was able to go go school. Zac sent her off as I went back to sleep. When I woke up a few hours later, my speech was back to normal but very very slow. not slurring, clear, but slow. Took me time to think clearly what I was saying. I had to make a few phone calls. I am so good with phone calls but nothing would come to me as usual. I had to look them up instead. I was supposed to have an MRI Saturday but totally forgot. I have another one booked for this coming Saturday. This has been the most scariest situation I have ever been through. I hope it was because I've had a few busy days and I was just way over tired. I slept and although my speech is a little more straightened out, I still have to think slowly before I speech. So this coming Saturday I have an MRI and then the following Monday I have a bone scan. What a totally scary day today :(

Ya put the right leg in, ya take the right leg out

(This is not my foot)


Yup my right leg is a mess. If you haven't heard the story from the beginning, I will fill you in. February 14th at Disney World I tripped on some carpet and smashed up my knee. It swelled like a cantaloupe and bruised from my groin to my ankle. A few days later, back in Canada, we went straight to ER. They x-rayed and did not find any broken bones or injured ligaments/tendons. I was put in a Zimmer splint and given crutches. I hobbled home in pain. Over time it began to get better and I was able to put a little weight on it. I was able to remove the splint and just use crutches. One night going to the bathroom, my crutch slid on shower water that wasn't cleaned up. I fell backwards into the bathtub with my legs hanging out. I was bruised across the top of my shoulder blades and across my entire hip/tailbone area. My ankle was injured more. Few days later I headed for bed. I attempted to turn off the lamp and turn to go to bed. My foot stayed still but my body turned, same leg.My ankle swelled like a tennis ball and I couldn't put any pressure on it. Back to ER, no breaks or injured tendons/ligaments, back on crutches. It is so sore, oxy and morphine are not even touching the pain. It wakes me up at night, it brings tears to my eyes and I'm miserable. I went out to a lovely brunch with my mom in law and sister in law. The next day my Achilles heel and tendon are in agonizing pain. My doc today sent me down for major x-rays of my spine, both hips, ankles, femur, feet and anything else related to those bones. I have an in depth bone scan planned for next week.

We discussed my cancer. My CT scan showed the prime cancerous tumor has grown a little and I have a few new small ones. Nothing to be concerned with for now. I have an MRI booked for next week to check out my head and torso, it's been 2 years since they did an MRI of my head. My breathing/lungs sounded good. My reflexes were good and she (my doc)said that other than my injured leg I'm in pretty good shape.

So no new meds, no worries about the cancer at the moment, just trying to relieve the pain of my right leg.

Doc just called, I have an avusion fracture in my ankle. The tendon has torn away a piece of bone. Waiting to see if it's going to be casted or air boot.