Overwhelmed

Today I had an emotional breakdown. I shouldn't say had, more so still having. My son refused to go to school again today, that set me off. *I* had to take the dog out for a walk, when he is paid to do it. That is going to stop. I am so worried about paying back this stupid overpayment to the government. Found out that because we are a family, hubby is liable too, so even when I die, he will still be responsible for MY bill. Yesterday I was told I committed fraud by not reporting the other payment. I felt like a criminal. I honestly didn't know. They made me feel horrible. They should be charged for taking a year to find the error. Going through so much red tape to get my oral terceva renewed, between the cancer clinic, my pharmacy, the drug company, my insurance, my doctor and the cancer pharmacy, you wouldn't think it should take this long to get things organized. But that's okay I will just sit here and die a little faster while you all sit on your asses. Apparently I'm angry too, who knew. I wanted this to be a wonderful Christmas (in case it's my last) Didn't get nearly the things I wanted to get for the kids (no funds).  I still have bladder and bowel issues I am dealing with on a daily basis. I can't catch up on housework. I have longtime friends and family who seem to have fallen off the face of the earth. I feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster. I am sure there are more things but perhaps I'm lucky I have short time memory loss or I might end up in the loony bin.

Woe is me, yeah, so what.

Oh I forgot something, on top of that, I got a bloody nose for the first time in my life. hurray!

FML (sorry)

And yes, I am *very* aware there are people with much bigger problems in this world.